Today was such a great day! Sometimes I underestimate my babies (2 and 3 years old). I forget what they’re capable of. I forget what I’m capable of. My husband has two kids from a previous relationship (22 and 13). When we got married 5 years ago, we decided it would be best for me to be home. It was easy for me to find a routine. I love taking care of our home. I love cooking for our family and taking care of the day to day stuff.
Essentially, I felt like I was doing it all. We were involved in church. I was working out and going out. I even started a business with my best friend. I underestimated how much would change when we had our babies. I can’t forget to mention that we had our first baby at the height of COVID. In the process I lost my routine. Despite it all, I wouldn’t change anything, and I realized something today. Nothing was lost, it’s just different.
Sometimes I felt like I was failing. My husband happily picks up dinner when I don’t cook. When our first baby was born I breast fed and when our second baby was born I exclusively manually pumped. I did this for each of them until they reached their first birthday. I may not cook dinner every night, like I used to, but everyone is fed. I may not have a gym membership but I can still work out. Let’s be honest, my babies didn’t change that. I just don’t do it. OUCH!
It snowed today and I went out to shovel while the babies watched me from their bedroom window. On my way out, my oldest (3) said, “mama I can help you.” I told him he couldn’t. That mama had to do it. I started the driveway and then I went inside, I put on all their snow gear and handed them a shovel. Guess what? They were the best helpers. We finished the rest of the driveway. I felt happy for them and they felt so proud. I could not have handed them a shovel one year ago, but they’re older, they’re changing. Change is inevitable. Change is part of life. Change can happen together, if you allow it. Nothing has to be lost.
The Things They say…
“you’re the best mama in the whole world”.